Hi guys! It's 4.21 in the morning and i can't sleep, so imma blog it like it's hot! Okay actually weather quite cold now.. Out today with Sam for haircutz, then town to shop, but plan fail. Fucking packed with people giving zero feel to shop. ): Anyway, chillax session with Sam,Joey,Dom & Yuanxing over at Subway. Source of entertainment - poker card. Abit loser but like fun with all those memory games. Hmmm? Then Yuanxing fetched us back home. 


I think today i fail.. and purely because i cannot resist the temptation to smoke. And that feeling damn loser. Can't believe that it's that tough to try and cut down and stop. Maybe for some people with strong determination, finds it easy to stop but i guess i'm those catagorized under weaker ones. Yes, some problem with my thinking i suppose ? Oh well, i hate to disappoint and get disappointed and at the end of the day, what do i gain? Guilt? Anger at myself blah blah.. 

I'm  fucking pissed with myself for being such a fail boy.. i feel like punching sand bags to relieve stress. I need someone to talk to right now but i guess everyone's asleeep eh? Hmmm.. i'll go count sheepz now byeeee!